Recovered Alcoholic

Moral Inventory We want to find out exactly how, when and  where our natural desires have warped us . We wish to  look squarely at the unhappiness this has caused others and ourselves.  By discovering  what our emotional deformities are, we can move towards their correction . Without  a willing and persistent effort to do this, there can be little sobriety or contentment for us.  Without a searching and  fearless moral inventory, most of us have found that the faith which really works in daily living is out of reach. Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions, p. 43  What is a Moral Inventory? The Big Book explains that we must make a list that includes all our resentments we have and have ever had, an account of sexual conduct and our fears. Then we must look at why we have those feelings. We found that the most important reason is not as we previously thought, what happened to us, but our reaction to what happened. This is not to deny that...

Forgiveness To forgive another person or circumstance is the most generous thing one can do for yourself.  When we forgive others for perceived transgressions it frees us from the bonds, entanglements and cords which manifest painful patterns such as: Judgments Resentments Anger Guilt Fear of retaliation Shame  Nightmares Repetitive "What if's" Ulcers Impending dome if when you see them Replaying events that or over and done Forgiving yourself is the most important action one can take to clearing self-sabotaging bonds of  victimhood  and their painful wounds.  When I "forgave" those I perceived at the time were the reason my life was shit and there was "NO WAY" I forgive them for what they did-I was free.  In the 5th Step I saw clearly that I was the culprit all along. That I always got the ball rolling somehow.  I was the chaos stirrer. I was the one with the high expectations. I was running around playing God. I was makin...

Isms in Alcoholism The definition of Isms: ism plural noun: isms a  distinctive practice , system, or philosophy, typically a political ideology or an artistic movement. "of all the isms, fascism is the most repressive" INDEED! My practice of destruction was a systematic idea that I created and turned it into a art form! My "practice" was deliberate, thought out and obsessed over day in and day out. How, when, where....would I fit life around my drinking??? That was hard work. We get clarity when separated from that which is killing us and then it is up to us to practice doing the opposite. Putting as much effort into transformation that I put into deconstruction. Doing/practice gave me strength, courage and the wisdom to discern right from wrong. First I had to admit complete defeat. Admitting that I had no clue how to do this life thing without destroying myself and all involved. With grace from God at first, then with diligence. FACING ALL the demons. Looking th...