I am so grateful for the suggested program of action that made it possible for me to live sober!!
We don't sober people up here, we do not have the power to get, or keep anyone sober, let alone ourselves, hense Step 1!! God I think got sick of seeing his most destructive, self hating, egocentric and stubborn children die, and knowing that we would only hear the sound of certain words, that this may redirect us from the path of rebellion, to the way home.
If something is "suggested" rather than enforced, I am more likely to open my mind to receive the information. The torment made me willing and the wording made it possible for the message to be received. The continued process/program of daily action keeps clearing more and more of the false constructs and identities, perceptions and conceptions that block out the Sunlight of the Spirit. The more nourishment I get from God, the less likely I am to make you my God which causes my destabilization and will not sustain my sobriety, emotional sobriety, or spiritual growth. Any aspirations, goals, or worldly achievements when done with God and in alignment with our souls highest expression is a wonderful thing and is the proper use of self will.
When grossly misaligned, and making all sorts of choices from that misalignment, the more suffering I will have to endure when I have to be realigned or popped back into place. Just like if your car, back, or arm is misaligned-yeah, it still works kinda, but it sucks and it's gonna suck even more the longer I ignore it. I would rather go through the daily process of renewal, then have to get "realigned" down the road, and having a daily program of action makes that possible.
So I don't have to drink today, not because I am a winner, make tons of meetings, do tons of service work or have 50000 sponsees, popular, make tons of money...it's because I am not over extended in any area, spreading myself too thin, or seeking approval/validation in anything or anyone outside of God. The temporary hit of dopamine I get when I seek and do those things I was trained to seek and do for my survival, are false, and a misuse of thier intended purpose.
You are a child of God, not my drink/drug or reason I get out of bed-I get out of bed and do the next right thing and God takes it from there!