Recovered Alcoholic

Living Sober, like our slogans, was the perfect amount of nourishment/milktoast I could digest in early sobriety that would ignite me into remembrance of these sacred spiritual principles later down the road. Layer by layer, line by line, word for word, year by year. So once I could comprehend that, I was able to expand to accommodate this from the Big Book: "Assuming we are spiritually fit, we can do all sorts of things alcoholics are not supposed to do. People have said we must not go where liquor is served; we must not have it in our homes; we must shun friends who drink; we must avoid moving pictures which show drinking scenes; we must not go into bars; our friends must hide their bottles if we go to their houses; we mustn't think or be reminded about alcohol at all. Our experience shows that this is not necessarily so. We meet these conditions every day. An alcoholic who cannot meet them, still has an alcoholic mind; there is something the matter...

I am so g rateful for the suggested program of action that made it possible for me to live sober!! We don't sober people up here, we do not have the power to get, or keep anyone sober, let alone ourselves, hense Step 1!! God I think got sick of seeing his most destructive, self hating, egocentric and stubborn children die, and knowing that we would only hear the sound of certain words, that this may redirect us from the path of rebellion, to the way home. If something is "suggested" rather than enforced, I am more likely to open my mind to receive the information. The torment made me willing and the wording made it possible for the message to be received. The continued process/program of daily action keeps clearing more and more of the false constructs and identities, perceptions and conceptions that block out the Sunlight of the Spirit. The more nourishment I get from God, the less likely I am to make you my God which causes m...