I love someone's share earlier, and for me it was spot on as to what was suggested to me when I was a newcomer. Don't make it, any of it, about you. It's not Thanksme Day. I could, and did, and sometimes still do (in my home with my husband), like to perceive my life like my personal sitcom. Arranging the actors and the stage to fit me and how I want things to go. This sort of bondage to self is annoying to people. Putting pressure on everyone to make me feel ok and to have things how I want. Like they have to go the extra mile to make me feel comfortable. I needed a standing ovation for just showing up. ME-ME-ME...Look at me, love me, feel sorry for me, help me...etc.
My first sponsor instilled in me that I suit up and show up and be that for others. How can I be of service here? Do I have just cause for being here? God, show me how you want me to represent you in all my dealings with people. God grant me pure motives before speaking-guide my communications. God let me not make this about me or my needs-let me find love, courage, strength, serenity in you-not them. Let me not bring a spirit of pressure to events, meetings, my home, anywhere...help me to allow people to just be themselves without my judgment or criticism.
I too found that hanging the children to be the best. When I was new, the house where I rented a room had people over every weekend for BBQs and firepit jam sessions with a lot of social drinking. I was sober so I could take the kids to the park, on a hike or walk, talk to them...it was awesome. I would go to bed that night sober, pure, and wake up refreshed and rested...no remorse, no physical or soul sickness!
So yeah, not about me. How can I serve God here?