When I started this gig 5 years ago and saw this Step on the wall I thought to myself, "Sweet, I never hurt or harmed anyone but myself...no problem....these Steps are gonna be easy...lol!
Smash cut to my second 5th Step, after doing a wishy washy first 4th and 5th Step- and saw that actually everyone on my 4th Step resentments was now to go onto my 8th Step-UMM, that sucks!
The people I thought I would never "forgive", turned out they were the ones I caused the most harm to. My perception at the time was still very much in victim mode but the 4th and 5th reveled the truth.
By this time I truly wanted to be free of bondage, so I prayed for the courage and willingness to go to any lengths to get right with my fellows, which got me right with God, which got me right with myself....Once I finally reached them, owned what I had done, not bringing up anything they did (by then I didn't care, I just wanted to be free)- it was done.
Like ___ said "I will no longer turn my grocery cart around if I see this man at the store. I will no longer feel shame and regret each time I hear his name or see him. In fact, I may smile and wave."
Smash cut to my second 5th Step, after doing a wishy washy first 4th and 5th Step- and saw that actually everyone on my 4th Step resentments was now to go onto my 8th Step-UMM, that sucks!
The people I thought I would never "forgive", turned out they were the ones I caused the most harm to. My perception at the time was still very much in victim mode but the 4th and 5th reveled the truth.
By this time I truly wanted to be free of bondage, so I prayed for the courage and willingness to go to any lengths to get right with my fellows, which got me right with God, which got me right with myself....Once I finally reached them, owned what I had done, not bringing up anything they did (by then I didn't care, I just wanted to be free)- it was done.
Like ___ said "I will no longer turn my grocery cart around if I see this man at the store. I will no longer feel shame and regret each time I hear his name or see him. In fact, I may smile and wave."