Recovered Alcoholic

Hi ______, Yep, Adrenaline,Cortisol and Dopamine! Drama is a powerful drug and distraction. It blocks us from receiving God's light. We get "fed" from the drug, instead of the joy, peace, courage, strength and serenity that God has in store for you. Satan knows us, he knows our weaknesses....his little demons fed off what the body produces when we give into the emotions produced by drama. The drama and chaos that is caused mostly by our defects or unwillingness to accept the defects of others.  About the knowledge and you saying you "know better" because you read scripture....This is why when you read Bills Story and he talks about how he had been giving "knowledge" by Dr. Silkworth about the disease of alcoholism yet he still relapsed. He thought all he needed was information and self will. Many Christians know the bible backwards and forwards...many alcoholics know the big book of AA  backwards and forwards....but unless we have the true ...

Children need structure...they do not respond to calm conversation. If they can't behave themselves then there should be real consequences. But if we don't follow though with consequences for them, if we allow them to walk all over us because we feel "guilty" -then we are doing them a grave injustice.  We were just taking about this with my Step Son. He is a spoiled rotten brat...how do I know...because I was a spoiled rotten brat! Does that mean I wasn't sweet, kind and loving, or he...not at all...it's just that he and I never had structure. We just kept getting away with stuff. I carried this into adulthood and became a selfish-self seeking-self centered alcoholic....one reason was because I never had structure or discipline. My mom and his parents didn't parent...they guilt parented. Parenting from a place of guilt because they felt they had wronged the children by getting a divorce or drinking. Maybe they did, actually the did...BUT-that does...

This is part of the "obsession of the mind" part of our disease....A tool I learned early on was to ask myself ": What is the worst case scenario here?" Whats the worst case of you not getting it done "in time"? That you sponsor will yell and scream at you!  Since deep down you kinda know that that's not going to happen, you honestly tell your sponsor.... "Hey, I'm over thinking this a bit...I want to be thorough and really dig deep...is there anyway you can give me a little more time?" Worst case again...she say's no....which she wouldn't....Why, because you are being honest.  So by applying this same concept to everything that we worry about...then handing the outcome over to God, we won't worry so much. If I yell and scream and say no...that means that I am super unreasonable, and a little wacky, to which you would be better off with another sponsor! LOL!  What happens is that we feel like we have to worr...

Hi @#$^, Indeed, alcohol does become our medicine. Once the drinking has been removed we are still left with us-our thinking mind, our past, our shame, our guilt, our trauma....nothing ever being dealt with or processed. That's why we always go back to that which is killing us, but giving us relief. I, we find that relief in God. We get God because we admit and become willing to trust (Step 1 &2). We get God because we turn our life over to him instead of a bottle, other people, doctors, ourselves clear our thinking mind that little seeks to destroy me. We get God when we clear out the wreckage that blocks us from receiving him in (Step 4 & 5), We get more God when we get "rewired" by actually identifying the defects by name...calling out the demons, if you will, that have been running the show. The defects/isms are a result of the way we adapted to the unacceptable. Assaulting our soul, inuring the brain. The crap we conformed to and did to fit, that never fe...