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Growing Daily in God and in Sobriety!

He that hath ears to hear, let him hear!!!!
Bible Study
Mark 8:34-38
  • And when he had called the people unto him with his disciples also, he said unto them, Whosoever will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.
  • For whosoever will save his life shall lose it; but whosoever shall lose his life for my sake and the gospel's, the same shall save it.
  • For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?
  • Or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?

  • Whosoever therefore shall be ashamed of me and of my words in this adulterous and sinful generation; of him also shall the Son of man be ashamed, when he cometh in the glory of his Father with the holy angels.

My Prayer for the Day
"Heavenly Father, in Jesus name-Thank You for teaching me today that denying myself the things I would before indulge in and that ultimately took from my soul, such as vodka, self pity, gossip, jealousy, self centeredness, selfishness, porn, TV, facebook, carelessness, unmarried sex, adultery, running around making sure everyone though I was wonderful even though I was full of hate, anger and fear, obsessing on what others are doing or not doing for me instead of looking at myself...Father all these distractions I created because I hated myself and what I had become. Taking up my cross and following you simply means doing the right thing, accepting You as my Lord and Savior, and facing myself head on and then turning away from it. Thank You for removing the distractions and distortions through the tools of AA. Thank You for strengthening my faith in You so much so that if I was offered all the money in the world or my life would be spared if I just deny you-I wouldn't. Thanks be to God! In Jesus name-Amen."

Today's Action

  • Today I will fish 3 ways to be selfless toward my loved one
  • Today I will accept the fact that my mind creates drama and will go to ANY lengths to control myself
  • Today I will stop obsessing on what he is doing and stop beating him up in my head
  • Today I will focus on becoming a women that any man would be proud to call his wife
  • Today I will accept that it's my job to change me and become whole-not his


Podcast of he Day
https://www.recoveryaudio.org/aa-speaker-tapes/tom-b-jr-from-charlotte-nc-speaking-on-the-topic-of-emotional-sobriety
Tom B. Jr. – Emotional Sobriety & Perfectionism

Hils Blah
The MOST important aspect to sobriety is emotional sobriety. Of course we can't get it until we are physically sober-But, once the obsession to drink has been removed this must be the number one focus, aside from helping others to get physically sober of course. Staying stuck in our emotional patterns is just as dangerous, if not more dangerous as drinking. Unruly emotions, and the delusions we create around them causes unnecessary strife, emotional hangovers, and bodily dis-ease. This is NOT an overnight matter. We have been looping this stuff for years and years. The players my have changed, or not, but our delusional perception and the constant blaming others that and thinking that somehow if they change or our circumstances change, or ANYTHING outside of us change, that things will be better.

 We will always find something to obsess on and create drama over or worry about if left untreated. This requires a strict daily regiment and constant vigilance. Calling yourself out on defects, inventory, working with others, knowing your emotional triggers, major acceptance and tolerance of our loved ones and major acceptance of the fact that we are not normal thinkers. We are alcoholic women who feed upon drama even if we have convinced ourselves we don't-we do. Praying for self-control until we have it.

Seeing those you are tormenting with your obsessive mind as children of God. God doesn't appreciate us thinking that we have the right to treat any of His children this way. Especially His little children. They pick up on our untreated alcoholism. They internalize our emotions. We must start putting others first over our temporary emotions and feelings. This take prayer and practice. The end result is peace and real serenity that you could never find in a bottle or in a picture perfect delusion you have convinced yourself would make "you" feel good. Stop worrying about you and how you feel and start making others feel good. We do NOT have the right to rob people of their emotional security. That was done to us when we were young. We must do whatever it takes to break the cycle of madness.

The world doesn't have to conform to meet our ridiculous emotional needs, neither do our loved ones.
"Bless the God, change me"

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Big Book
We the Agnostics...Conclusion

"One night, when confined in a hospital, he was approached by an alcoholic who had known a spiritual experience. Our friend’s gorge rose as he bitterly cried out: “If there is a God, He certainly hasn’t done anything for me!’’ But later, alone in his room, he asked himself this question: “Is it possible that all the religious people I have known are wrong?’’ While pondering the answer he felt as though he lived in hell. Then, like a thunderbolt, a great thought came. It crowded out all else:

 “Who are you to say there is no God?’’

 This man recounts that he tumbled out of bed to his knees. In a few seconds he was overwhelmed by a conviction of the Presence of God. It poured over and through him with the certainty and majesty of a great tide at flood. The barriers he had built through the years were swept away. He stood in the Presence of Infinite Power and Love. He had stepped from bridge to shore. For the first time, he lived in conscious com- panionship with his Creator.

 Thus was our friend’s cornerstone fixed in place. No later vicissitude has shaken it. His alcoholic problem was taken away. That very night, years ago, it disappeared. Save for a few brief moments of temptation the thought of drink has never returned; and at such times a great revulsion has risen up in him. Seemingly he could not drink even if he would. God had restored his sanity.

 What is this but a miracle of healing? Yet its elements are simple. Circumstances made him willing to believe. He humbly offered himself to his Maker— then he knew.

 Even so has God restored us all to our right minds. To this man, the revelation was sudden. Some of us grow into it more slowly. But He has come to all who have honestly sought Him.

When we drew near to Him He disclosed Himself to us!"


Hil's Blah
Indeed-Who the hell am I to say there is no God. This Chapter basically says "if you don't believe in God, you better change your mind"....No matter how much modern AA has watered the message down and removed God from the rooms and the solution-God is the solution, period.