Psalm 63:2 King James Version (KJV)
To see thy power and thy glory, so as I have seen thee in the sanctuary.
Isaiah 40:10-11 King James Version (KJV)
Behold, the Lord God will come with strong hand, and his arm shall rule for him: behold, his reward is with him, and his work before him.
He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm, and carry them in his bosom, and shall gently lead those that are with young.
Psalm 139:7-10 King James Version (KJV)
Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?
If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.
If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;
Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.
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My Prayer for the Day
"Heavenly Father....I Trust You Jesus! I trust that You will guide me to the next right thing if I let you. I trust that You will give me the right words, if I let You. I trust that you I trust that You will always provide, if I let You. I trust that You know what's best for me. and those I love....Please grant me the willingness to let you.
I know that I let my pride and self-seeking agenda bring resentment, anger and frustration into my home, causing others to suffer unnecessarily. Please help me to control my emotions through admitting that I am powerless over them. I am the creator of my mess Father. I trust you to clean it up so that I may be of maximum service to You and to my fellows. In Jesus name-Amen"
First Step Prayer
God, Help me to see and admit that I am powerless over my alcoholism. Help me to understand how my alcoholism has led to unmanageability in my life. Help me this day to understand the true meaning of powerlessness. Remove from me all denial of my alcoholism.
Today’s action
- Today I will write down all the things I am powerless over, including alcohol.
Example:
I am powerless over what others think about me
I am powerless over my emotional nature
I am powerless over my boyfriends actions
I am powerless over other peoples outcomes
- Today I will Trust Jesus to do for me what I could not do for myself....
I trust that Jesus will intercede and remove these defects when He see's fit
I trust that Jesus will show give me the right words when I need them
I trust Jesus will show me what my next move should be
I trust Jesus with will alway take care of me and my family. That I am the one who choses to worry instead of trust!!
Podcast of the Day
What is the Problem ?
Tom B.
This man seriously opened my eyes in 2015 as to what I was really up against. This is the kind of old timer that will make you think...in a good way.
12 x 12 on Tradition Seven
“Every A.A. group ought to be fully self supporting, declining outside contributions.”
Hil's blah
In a world driven by money I am stilled floored that Bill and the others didn't accept the "bribes" aka outside contributions from special interest and secret societies. Truly God was all over this. Bill could not have resisted this temptation on his own...no way. Thank you God for keeping AA sacred. It's stilla fight to keep darkness out, but it could have been worse. I mean where would we be if people could lobby us for financial gane?
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Big Book There is a Solution....Continued...
"An illness of this sort—and we have come to believe it an illness—involves those about us in a way no other human sickness can. If a person has cancer all are sorry for him and no one is angry or hurt. But not so with the alcoholic illness, for with it there goes annihilation of all the things worth while in life. It engulfs all whose lives touch the sufferer’s. It brings misunderstanding, fierce resentment, financial insecurity, disgusted friends and employers, warped lives of blameless children, sad wives and parents—anyone can increase the list."
Hil's blah
I never thought that my drinking was damaging those around me. In my selfishness I also saw my pain. "How could be having a few cocktails or glasses of wine bother you? Who cares!!! I'm just sitting here??" I was just "sitting there"...making other people feel uncomfortable with my presence. We threaten people's emotional security with our selfishness...drunk or sober or buzzed. We aren't fully presence in any of those cases. I certainly wasn't present when I was hung! I wasn't present for my family, friends, boyfriends, job...I resented all of them, oh, and God, for my hopeless state. We become an annoyance. A burden. This is a spiritual dis-ease. A Spiritual disease requires a Spiritual solution-Selfishness can only be cured by selflessness. Selfless by suiting up and showing up for others-not resenting them for our defects. Not resenting them for them just being themselves. We chose these people and then spend years beating them up...wanting them to change instead of us changing us. I pray for forgiveness for doing that all the people from my past...I recommend everyone humble going before God and doing the same :)
"We hope this volume will inform and comfort those who are, or who may be affected. There are many. Highly competent psychiatrists who have dealt with us have found it sometimes impossible to persuade an alcoholic to discuss his situation without reserve. Strangely enough, wives, parents and intimate friends usually find us even more approachable than do the psychiatrist and the doctor. But the ex-problem drinker who has found this solution, who is properly armed with facts about himself, can generally win the entire confidence of another alcoholic in a few hours. Until such an understanding is reached, little or nothing can be accomplished."
Hils blah
I would listen to psychiatrist but always manipulated them into feeling sorry for me. This continued me thinking that I was a victim. A drunk on the other hand will say stuff like..."What are you grateful for? Did you give thanks to God for that? How were you odf service today? The world doesn't revolve around you. Quit complaining and go help someone! It's not ok that you said that...go apologize."
A drunk also knows the pain and torture it is just being me. They get it, they love us, but they won't let us get away with the behaviors that are killing us. They will call out our defects whether we like or not! They love us enough to tell the truth. If your sponsor or the person you are working doesn't piss you off once in a while-go find another sponsor. People pleasing someone to death is not what I want on my resume when I meet Jesus!
"That the man who is making the approach has had the same difficulty, that he obviously knows what he is talking about, that his whole deportment shouts at the new prospect that he is a man with a real answer, that he has no attitude of Holier Than Thou, nothing whatever except the sincere desire to be helpful; that there are no fees to pay, no axes to grind, no people to please, no lectures to be endured—these are the conditions we have found most effective. After such an approach many take up their beds and walk again."
"And Jesus knowing their thoughts said, Wherefore think ye evil in your hearts?
For whether is easier, to say, Thy sins be forgiven thee; or to say, Arise, and walk?
But that ye may know that the Son of man hath power on earth to forgive sins, (then saith he to the sick of the palsy,) Arise, take up thy bed, and go unto thine house. And he arose, and departed to his house."
Matthew 9:4-7
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As Bill See’s it
"The Spiritual Angle"
How often do we sit in A.A. meetings and hear the speaker
declare, "But I haven't yet got the spiritual angle." Prior to
this statement, he has described a miracle of transformation
which has occurred in him -- not only his release from
alcohol, but a complete change in his whole attitude toward
life and the living of it.
It is apparent to everyone else present that he has received a
great gift, and that this gift is all out of proportion to anything
that may be expected from simple A.A. participation. So we
in the audience smile and say to ourselves, "Well, that guy is
just reeking with the spiritual angle -- except that he doesn't
seem to know it yet!"
GRAPEVINE, JULY 1962
Luke 16:8
And the lord commended the unjust steward, because he had done wisely: for the children of this world are in their generation wiser than the children of light.