I didn't know HOW I could possibly get and stay SOBER! I never felt good, especially SOBER. From the time I was born I was Restless, Irritable and Discontent. When alcohol was removed, my medicine, I was much worse. The word Restless ; unable to rest or relax as a result of anxiety or boredom The word Irritable ; abnormally sensitive; having or showing a tendency to be easily annoyed or made angry. The word Discontent ; lack of contentment; dissatisfaction with one's circumstances; a person who is dissatisfied, typically with the prevailing social or political situation ME- ME- ME As a child, and on through until I found alcohol, I probably would have been diagnosed with Anxiety, Depression, Bipolar or whatever 3 to 4 letter label was popular at the time. But I didn't go that route and nor did my mom, to which I am grateful. I was actually suffering from the "isms" in alcoholism. My isms/defects are the by-product...