Recovered Alcoholic

Correspondence  with Sponsee about her not trusting her own motives when reaching out to newcomers: You had mentioned about a week ago that you didn't trust your motives yet. I of course then heard a speaker talk about that very thing...Thank you God! Anyway, she said that we use the AA principles because our motives or distorted, until they aren't. And I then remembered that yes, until I had the change of perception and when my even new perception gets distorted by my worldliness/ego, I can revert back to the principles in the Steps and apply them to my communications: Honesty Step 1. We admitted that we were powerless over alcohol - that our lives had become unmanageable. (Is what I am saying honest based upon my own experience or am I speaking to sound profound?) Hope Step 2. Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. (Is what I am saying offering hope to this persona I am reaching out to based upon my  expe...

Upon awakening, I ask my Father to take over-Seriously...first thing-why? Because who starts talking to me the moment I wake up-my mind. I start thinking about them, that and the other....I'm already carrying on conversations in my head from bed to the bathroom to the coffee pot. Scheming, manipulation, having arguments, how am I gonna get that, convince him of this-planning my day with a alcoholic mind is NOT how I want to start off! By simply rolling out of the bed onto my knees in  Complete Surrender  that   I am powerless, not only over alcohol but of others, of my emotional reactions, of my feelings, of my fears, my husband, my boss-GOD,please take over!  3rd Step Prayer, Serenity Prayer, 7th Step Prayer- simple and  something I can STICK with!!!  Consistency in doing good was not my strongest attribute so I had to keep it simple in the beginning until this became prayer thing become habit.  I am undisciplined, so I ask God to hel...